Somebody please fix my brain :)

So, its been awhile and I haven't been all that great in my journey. I have been up and down with the last few lbs, currently I'm down, but my official weigh in isn't until tomorrow, so I won't count it just yet! So, when I ask for someone to fix my brain, I am totally serious. I mean, I went and got this surgery to help assist me with my weight loss goals, but yet at every corner I make decisions that ultimately hamper those goals. Why, oh why, can't I just give up the alcoholic concoctions that are hindering my weight loss? Why, oh why, can't I stop eating some of the sweets and things that are hindering my weight loss. For some reason, I am maintaining my current weight loss, but I think that's purely because for the last few weeks I have made sure to get my walks in every day! If not for that, I'm sure I'd be up. I was really happy a few weeks back when I felt like I had good restriction, but as of today, I am again able to eat more than I should be able to eat, so that isn't helping either.  I set up an appointment to discuss my issues with the nursing team and also scheduled another fill for 7/2. I really hope I get to the green zone soon because this is soooo hard. I know everyone says not to compare yourself to anyone else, but it is hard to see so many people losing so much more. I am very happy with what I have lost so far and for the fact that I have so many more clothes that fit, but I really need help with this thing called summer and BBQ's and beverages...lol. I have tried switching to non-alcoholic beverages like the Crystal Light Mojito, Margarita and Appletini mixes, but it just doesn't feel the same. I guess I am just on a rant and need to kick myself in the butt, but if any of you are close by, I wouldn't mind a kick in the "arse" from some of you as well...hope you all are doing better than me!

Ughhh...I suck at being good!

Sooo...today I weighed  in and am up 1.5 lbs from last Friday. I haven't been drinking. I only have had 1 glass of wine in 2 weeks, so I'm hoping to attribute it to my "Pyramid" as my girl calls that time of the month...lol...oh well...gotta get back up and push on. I've been walking everyday this week and need to just be better with the "slider" type of foods. I don't think I'm paying enough attention to that, so here goes again!!! Have a great week everyone!

Well..well...well...is this what some restriction feels like?

So, I'm not sure if I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be or if I hit my "green zone" or not, but let me tell you this...I have eaten very little and feel pretty well satisfied so I think I may just be there! I didn't have breakfast, somehow I drank my coffee and made it to lunch without being hungry. I know having something is important and on most days i do, but I just didn't feel like it today. By lunchtime I was starving, so I made a small sandwich (yes bread!), and didn't know if I would get stuck or not, but didn't. I only ate 3/4 of it and gave the rest to my hubby as I was full!! That never happens, so I don't know if its a fluke or if I'm there! I really hope I'm there because I travel 1.5 hours each way for a fill, so if I was there it would be fab! On another note, I made it through the first day of the weekend without a alcoholic beverage..go me! Today and tonight are going to be a test though, as I have a party.  I also was asked to bring a dessert, the famous Blonde Brownies....so I need to try to steer clear of eating them too! Well..enough rambling...hope you guys are doing good!

6/1/12 Weigh In - :)

Soooooo...I was absolutely horrible over the Memorial Day weekend. We had lots of BBQ's and lots of alcoholic beverage consumption. I ate a burger w/bun, dog w/ bun, steak, corn on the cob, pasta salad, rice & beans, fried bananas and just about anything else I could get my hands on throughout the weekend. I also consumed bloody mary's, beer, smirnoff ice, margaritas, shots, etc. What a way to spend the weekend! Anyway, was pretty pissed at myself for going back to old habits, so kicked myself in the butt on Monday. I stepped up the walking, water, and got back to eating correctly, and guess what???? I am down 3 lbs as of 6/1...woooo hoooo! So, with that said, I am now 33 lbs down since January. I'll take it :) Hope all of you have a great week as well!